* I’m hoping this will last * {mik}

[RIONA IMOGEN PHIPPS]

Mikky,

Hope you don’t think I’m weird for writing this, I just wanted a way to realized I came up with a dozen thoughts a day I’d share with you and had to find a way to do so.

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I was thinking and I want to try cooking. I’ve gathered a lot of recipes for stuff but I never use them for like obvious reasons. Don’t know what made me think of this.

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Questions, I’ve met this kid his name’s Dexter and he’s shy so to get him to talk I’ve been asking tons of questions. It made me realize there’s a lot I haven’t asked you, or that you haven’t asked me yet. Sometime we should just do that. Sit around and ask questions. Find out everything while we can.

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Some of the people around here scare me, or piss me off, but you know what I’ve realized? I’m becoming an actress here Mikky. Because no one seems to have noticed yet. Maybe I’ll have a career if I ever get out.

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I’m weird, have you noticed that? bet you haven’t. lol. You amaze me by the way, don’t ask how I can’t even explain just know that you do.

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Met this kid today who thinks he’s a slave…that’s just…Mik it’s not right that people in his life have made him feel like he’s only able to do as told by a “master”. People are free for a reason, we’re supposed to be able to make our own lives how we want right? I feel bad for him.

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Do you think we’ll ever…

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Random Rio fact for you? I love the stars. Laying outside in the grass and just looking up at the stars makes me feel so small, but not hopeless. They’re calming and reliable, you know they’re always up there no matter if you can see them or not.

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I thought of something. The baby doesn’t show hate by making you sick. Just shows you that things aren’t going to be easy, that you need to be prepared?

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People should smile more then maybe they wouldn’t fight as much? I dunno. And storms, I think those effect people’s moods too. I’ve got a “weird view” on storms though I’ve been told.

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This is turning out more random than I’d thought…it’s just a collection of thoughts isn’t it? huh.

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Never thought I’d miss something from “home” but I do, I miss the tire swing. Dad put it up for me and some nights I’d kill to just be able to sit and swing.

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Alright I think I’ve thought enough at you. lol. Two pages isn’t bad. But I’m gonna wrap it up now.

I love you Mikky
Riona <3




Rio had spent most of the day avoiding the doctors who wanted to talk to her and check if she had any new cuts or scars on her body. She hated those people, hated being looked over and judged. And hated their reaction when they found what they were looking for. To her way of thinking you shouldn’t look for something you don’t want to find, and that’s what they did. It didn’t matter though, they’d eventually caught up with her and had found the new scars and cuts, which led to them searching through her stuff for what she was using to cause them. Since arriving there they’d only found two razors and only cause she’s made a mistake in where she left it both times. They still hadn’t found the ones she hid in her shoes, which was a good thing in her opinion. She didn’t know what she’d do if/when they found those and took them from her, she’d have to hope she had a friend who’d give her one. Though she’d been trying to not do it as much, she knew she’d never be able to stop. There was too much fat that needed to come off and sometimes she just…needed it.

Right now though she was curled up in her, surprisingly empty, dorm with her favorite Shakespeare book reading. She hadn’t wanted to go be real social after the issues with the doctors and it was getting later in the afternoon so she’d figured enjoying a little peace in the dorms wasn’t a bad thing. She loved to read, and she loved to write. The notebook she’d gotten for writing her thoughts sat to the side of her legs, with the elephant stuffed animal she normally kept hidden, she’d kept writing but hadn’t dropped off these thoughts. Mik had gotten her first letter but for all she knew he still hadn’t read it. It made her worry that maybe she’d done something wrong in writing it? She remembered after dropping it off him and Leena mentioning they wrote each other letters to tell each other stuff…maybe she’d stepped in on something she shouldn’t have? She’d just wanted a way to share all the thoughts she would just tell Mik even if she couldn’t just tell him whenever she wanted. She didn’t mind that she couldn’t just go find him and talk to him, because she could talk to Leena too since she had begun thinking of her as a sister. There were a few things that bugged her, but nothing serious and she could keep those things to herself and never let anyone know.

Her thoughts were scattering, she needed to focus on the story she was reading before her thoughts ran away and she did something stupid. She had her headphones over her ears, the music blasting through her thoughts in a good way.

I just can't get you off my mind, and why would I even try?
Even when I close my eyes, I dream about you all the time.
'Cause I just always wanna have you right here by my side.
The future's near but never certain, so please stay here for just tonight.
I must've done something right to deserve you in my life.
I must've done something right along the way.
Even if the moon fell down tonight,
There’d be nothing to worry about at all because you make the whole world shine.
As long as you're here everything will be alright.

Not realizing it as she read she started singing, her voice not anything worth bothering to listen to for longer two seconds if you wanted them to survive. I must've done something right to deserve you in my life. I must've done something right along the way. she sang softly to herself as her eyes slid closed the book in her hands closed with her thumb to hold it’s place as she hit repeat on the song and just lay there against the pillows listening with her eyes shut enjoying it.

TAGGED ** Mik {leena}
STATUS ** Finished
WORDS ** Some?
OUTFIT ** clickclickclick
LYRICS ** CHASE COY – “If The Moon Fell Down Tonight”
NOTES ** That's only parts of the letter thing she gave him there for the first part xP
CREDIT ** Made by Suzie but since she’s ma sis she can hit me or something for usin it.

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[ANGELEENA MARIA MYANAVICH]

ALL I EVER NEEDED
was here in my arms

Dearest Riona.
I don't really think you know just how hard doing something this huge is for me. I'm.. surprisingly shy. You should hear me talk about Alejandro around other people. It's...

That's beside the point.

All my life, I have never thought that I would could love someone as much as I love you, and I never thought that that someone would love me back just that much... if not more. I'm convinced that you're the only person that will EVER love me more than I love them.

I know this isn't much, it isn't beautiful or extravagant like you see in the movies because, well, this isn't a movie, and in case you weren't aware, we're in an asylum. Leena and I are only fifteen, and she's pregnant. Luckily they pay for doctor visits, or I wouldn't have been able to find money. And Leena's been helping so much. She's selling most of her drugs, and for something better than sex. She's been risking our ass for money for this.

I. I love you, Rio. I love you so much more than life itself, and I don't know what I would do without you. You make Angeleena and I both so happy, and I've been saving up for this since I met you. If you're confused, you won't be. Trust me.

More love than can be summed up in words,
-Mikhael Thomas Samuel Myanavich.

He dropped something small into the envelope and sealed it, writing Rio's full name on the front in very scripty handwriting. He had read her note, and decided that he would do the same... with a twist.
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It had been a couple of days, Leena gave Rio the note, and now it was time. Mikky had been in hiding, and for a good reason. He very quickly moved to Rio's room, knocking softly on the door. "Riona, dearest? Soy Mikky~ May I come in?" It was clear, that even though they were lovers, Mikhael was still immensely formal. His smile was wide, he heard her singing. He loved her voice, and the words she sang were perfect. He leaned against the wall and heaved a heavy sigh, allowing his mind to wander while he waited for the door to open. Oh god, how he loved Riona.

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Outfit: link (sans the gloves, beret and shoes)
Words:
Tagged: ;]
Lyrics: enjoy the silence . depeche mode
Notes:
Mikhael's emotions: looove
Credit: RAWR?! of cautionalso known as kali of nevermore. do not remove credit.

[RIONA IMOGEN PHIPPS]

Rio had put the envelope Leena had given her from Mikky safely into the drawer by her bed where she’d not lose it or forget it was there. She didn’t want to open it when he wasn’t around, couldn’t explain why but it just seemed right to her to open it when he was there with her. She had looked at it enough times now even in the short time she’d had it, tempted to break the seal and see what he’d written to her. All sorts of thoughts and possibilities running through her mind about what it could be he’d needed to write. Things like a response to her rambling sort of letter to him? Or his own letter to her about his thoughts? Then she’d started doubting and wondered if it was the type of letter she was meant to have read already so she’d know to stay away from him. God she hoped it wasn’t a break up letter…would Mikky do that? Leena had said she didn’t know what was in there but she might have…and she’d not seemed at all off like she knew Mik had opened his eyes to Rio’s flaws and fucked up existence and wanted to walk away. She’d kicked herself for thinking like that after she’d gotten done crying. She hated her little mood glitches sometimes.

Now she was trying again to resist it, though it sat there calling to her asking to be opened and read and she tried really hard to resist giving in. She wanted and needed to know. Almost as bad as she wanted and needed to know Mik’s thoughts on the letter she’d left for him. Maybe that’s what had set him off if it wasn’t a good letter? She shouldn’t have written it she shouldn’t have showed him how screwy her mind could be in a day. A quiet part between the lines of the song was what let her hear the knock at her door, and while she waited to see if the person would just walk in since some knocked to make sure no one inside was fucking. When no one entered she paused the music as it changed to a new song and got up tucking the elephant out of sight and leaving her headphones on the bed as she crossed to the door and pulled it open a smile coming to her lips at who she saw. Mikky! Hi! she greeted happily all worries about a bad letter pushed from her mind as she wrapped her arms around him in a hug. To anyone else this would be a question at seeing him, they’d wonder sometimes if it was Leena or Mik. Rio just knew whenever she saw them, it was in how they dressed and just how they looked to her. She knew her sister and her love, and the two would always be different people in her eyes.

Stepping aside she motioned into the room and smiled at him, Come on in…you picked a good time no one’s around for some reason. she said shrugging. She was happy her dorm mates seemed to be happy being somewhere else. It meant she could just relax for a change and now that Mik was there it meant she could just enjoy talking to him rather than having to tell anyone to butt out of the conversation. Moving to her bed she moved the stuff off of it tucking her notebook under her pillow and patted the bed. Come sit for a bit?

TAGGED ** Mik {leena}
STATUS ** Finished
WORDS ** Some?
OUTFIT ** clickclickclick
LYRICS ** CHASE COY – “If The Moon Fell Down Tonight”
NOTES ** <3 daww
CREDIT ** Made by Suzie but since she’s ma sis she can hit me or something for usin it.

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[ANGELEENA MARIA MYANAVICH]

ALL I EVER NEEDED
was here in my arms

Seeing Rio's face instantly put a smile on Mikhael's face. He couldn't help it, being around Rio made him glad that he was a part of Leena's life. The note from the girl he loved dearly had inspired him, and he even had a surprise for her later, if she was willing to go outside. Yes, the Spanish boy had put up a tire swing. Just for Rio and nobody else. He chuckled at the hug and wrapped his arms around her as well, matching the embrace. He inhaled softly, almost worriedly. He knew why he was coming today, and he knew that Rio had no idea. He rubbed her back and moved to sit on the bed, tucking his feet under him.

"Have you opened my letter yet..?" His voice was soft, he wasn't going to give her the bad news just yet. He at least wanted her to find the ring in the envelope first. Yes, Mikky was proposing to her. He didn't care that she was two years his elder, or that he was only fifteen. He loved Rio, and he wasn't sure how much longer he would be "alive," with the surgery that he and Leena are opting to get after the baby is born. A surgery that may give him a body of his own... He hoped Rio would be ok with that, though if it messed up, both he and Leena wouldn't survive.

He very gently ran his hand along her cheek and pulled her into a soft kiss, moving his free hand to intertwine with hers as he held her there, happy enough to just sit there and kiss all day.

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Outfit: link (sans the gloves, beret and shoes)
Words:
Tagged: ;]
Lyrics: enjoy the silence . depeche mode
Notes:
Mikhael's emotions: looove
Credit: RAWR?! of cautionalso known as kali of nevermore. do not remove credit.

[RIONA IMOGEN PHIPPS]

Rio sat on the bed fidgeting a little to get comfortable and smiling at Mik, she was happy to see him. Well she was always happy to see him or Leena but she’d not seen him in a while now and it made her happy he’d come to see her. It had been an uncomfortable week for her in some ways with her back and with the doctors screwing with her meds because they didn’t seem to be stopping her from the cutting. She’d told them that no pills were going to fix that and since she’d actually started taking the meds for a change she’d remembered why she never bothered before. They made her weird and she didn’t like feeling like she wasn’t herself anymore which was what they were doing.

The letter she’d been worrying over and afraid to open being mentioned had her biting her lip as she shook her head a little. She hoped he wouldn’t be mad that she hadn’t, and since he didn’t seem angry or upset prayed her worries over it being a bad letter were just stupid. No? I didn’t want to open it when you weren’t around? I dunno… she mumbled softly thinking it sounded foolish now that she thought about it. She’d given him her letter not wanting to be there when he opened and read it because she’d feel goofy if she watched him reading her random ramblings. She hoped he wouldn’t be mad that she hadn’t yet read it.

Seconds later forgot all about it for a moment as his lips met hers in a gentle kiss that melted her. She could spend all day just cuddled up to Mik, kissing and just being close and she’d be happy because he’d be there with her. She’d never expected to feel this way about someone, or for anyone to want to be with her ever but somehow she’d found what she’d always dreamed about, love. It was wonderful and better than even the books described.

TAGGED ** Mik {leena}
STATUS ** Finished
WORDS ** Some?
OUTFIT ** clickclickclick
LYRICS ** CHASE COY – “If The Moon Fell Down Tonight”
NOTES ** <3
CREDIT ** Made by Suzie but since she’s ma sis she can hit me or something for usin it.

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