MOORE, jordyn danielle [done]

[JORDYN DANIELLE MOORE]

JORDYN D. MOORE

is there anyone out there
cause it's getting harder and
harder to breathe!
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HAI THURRR~ MY NAME IS RAINN and I HAIL
FROM EASTERN!
AREN'T YOU JEALOUS ;] YOU CAN CONTACT ME
BY PM FOR AIM OR MSN. OH,
AND I'VE BEEN ROLEPLAYING FOR 8 YEARS NOW!

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* / FULL NAME

[/b] Jordyn Danielle Moore
* / NICKNAMES[/b] Jord
* / AGE[/b] eighteen
* / GENDER[/b] female
* / JOB[/b] staff only: therapist, guard, teacher etc
* / SEXUALITY[/b] straight
* / MEMBER GROUP[/b] emo
* / CONDITIONS[/b] "do you really have to ask what's wrong with me? i'm suicidal, i like to hurt myself in any way that i can. cutting with a razor is my specialty but i will in fact cut with anything that i can get a hold to. i also like to burn myself. that never gets old. cutting has been something i've done since i was 13 years old. apparently what i do has something to do with me having Borderline personality disorder. i don't know if understand that completely but hey, there the experts not me. the only thing i'm an expert on is cutting and self-harming myself. oh and thinking in black and white which is basically described as only thinking two sides of a situation will happen when there could be more outcomes. my moods change rather often, which make it hard for people to get too close to me. one minute i'm nice, happy and carefree and the next i may turned into the biggest bitch that you will ever meet in your life. my mood swings have been around since i was around eleven years old. it made it very hard for me, especially after a turn thirteen. most thought i was crazy and after i started self-harming myself, that was confirmed for a lot of people.

i was abused and molested by my mom's many boyfriends. you see, she's kind of a drug addicted tramp. that's why the doctor's say i self-harm myself. most tend to think i do it for attention but i don't. i don't show off my scars, cuts, burns, stabs or anything else I manage to do to me body. most think its all just a joke and that i can stop anytime i want but its not that easy. i've become pretty addicted to self-harming myself. every doctor i've seen said i've been by far the worst case of self-harm they've seen. my arms are the worst as far as scars go. my arms seem to be my favorite place to harm myself. easy access, i guess. either way though, most people tend to freak when they see what i've done to myself and most people my age don't want to have anything to do with me. they seem frightened by me but i have no intentions of hurting anyone around me, just myself.

and if what i mentioned weren't enough of a problem for me i also have this little thing called Self-defeating personality disorder. don't know what that means? well, let me explain. basically it means i often avoid or undermine pleasurable experiences, be drawn to situations or relationships in which i will suffer, and prevent others from helping me. so my mom being the bitch that she is, when she found out i had this, she thought it was my fault that i was abused and molested by those men so she sent me here. and so maybe i do need the help but it isn't my fault my mom can't get boyfriends that don't wanna abuse and molest her daughter. i never asked for any of it. "
* / FACE CLAIM[/b] jacquelyne marie
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* / LIKES

[/b] ** backstabbers
** liars
** cruel people
** people who blab secrets
** stupid people
** ignorant people
** nosy people
** rude people
** being alone
** broken hearts
** hurting somoene
** being hurt
* / DISLIKES[/b] ** early mornings
** rude and obnoxious people
** backstabbers
** liars
** cruel people
** people who blab secrets
** stupid people
** ignorant people
** nosy people
** being alone
** broken hearts
** hurting somoene
** being hurt
* / POSITIVE TRAITS[/b]
** caring
** compassionate
** affectionate
** her smile
** her laugh
** loyal
* / NEGATIVE TRAITS[/b]
** Doesn't think she's capable of being in love, or loving someone else.
** Biting her nails.
** Not talking to people
** Keeping to herself
** Untrusting
** Not showing her emtoions[/size][/blockquote][/blockquote]

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* / HOMETOWN

[/b] albany, new york
* / PARENTS[/b] james and sarah moore. father is deceased.
* / SIBLINGS[/b] none
* / OTHER FAMILY[/b] none
* / HISTORY[/b] "well i was born in this town called albany and that's in new york. i was the only daughter to sarah and james moore. i grew up with basically the same childhood as any little girl. except for the fact that i was relatively spoiled by my dad, in which my mom hated it. after she realized i was really close to my dad, she tried to have more kids but never got pregnant. it was later discovered that my dad couldn't have any more kids for some odd reason. i don't know. i was only 3 at this time. when i was 5 though many things changed. for starters, my mom basically turned into this, for lack of a better word, bitch. she would constantly nag my dad about every little thing so in the end my dad got really depressed and sick and eventually killed himself. my mom later persisted to tell me that it was all my fault and that i was a faillure of a daughter. i was only five so it was hard for my mind to really comprehend very much. by the time i was 9, i blamed myself for my dad's death. that's when i discovered a note in some of my belongings. it was from my dad. he basically told me that he wanted to leave me something to remember him by and for me to know that it wasn't my fault he had killed himself. he loved me and it was my mom's fault. then i was only 9 so i never said anything to my mom about it. at the age of 12, my mom decided it was time for her to start dating again so she did. the first few weren't so bad but after about the 5th one, things went downhill from there. they'd stick around for a while when they realized the drug addicted whore actually had a pretty daughter. by the time i was 13 i had been molested by almost a hundred men. to this day i am still very much afraid of what one might do to me.

around that time was when i started to hurt myself. i couldn't find any other release for what was happening to me so i turned to hurting myself. my social life started to crumble after that. yes, my mom actaully let me have friends and go out and do things. it was the only way she figured she could get rid of me and i had no problem with that. it got me away from her many boytoys or whatever they were. however by the time i was 14 i'd lost most of my friends. they all noticed a big change in me and they couldn't deal with it anymore. my many mood swings had me cussing out most of them at any given time. they couldn't handle it anymore. and things procedded to get worse. the abuse started again shortly after that. i had no choice but to be at home and no matter what i tried to do, even if i did try to hide, they'd just find me and then whatever they did would be worse. every time they'd abuse me, i'd hurt myself in some way. and now, i can't seem to stop any of it. "
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