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Apr 23, 2010 1:15:19 GMT
Post by LEXI ROSE MCDANIELS on Apr 23, 2010 1:15:19 GMT
The walls that she had spent so long building and reinforcing seemed to be toppling down with him. His hands were tearing them down effortlessly, and deep down she really didn't mind this. The way he was holding her, so gently and so lovingly, she felt like she was melting right there in his arms, and she was loving every moment of it. He gritted his teeth and she tensed for a second, she was afraid that she had something to make him angry and she was waiting for the consequence that she had learned to come and expect after she had angered someone. However, he reacted differently then she was expecting, he didn't react violently like her ex, no, he told her that she was beautiful and that the person that told her that she wasn't was an asshole. Tears began to role down her porcelain skin then, and she bit her lip embarrassed by the tears that were falling down her cheeks, but he held her close and looked into her eyes. At that moment all she wanted was to feel his lips against hers, and within seconds her wish of that happening came true. Leaning into him, she kissed him back, and felt his lips turn in a smile against hers. "I've always been alone, and I've always been taken advantage of..." again her whispered words trailed off as he pulled away from her, and she just stared into his eyes.
A shiver ran through her body again, and she pulled his sweater tighter around her small shoulders, if that was even possible. Slowly, she moved closer to him, and leaned against him while wiping the tears from her eyes. She couldn't believe that she was crying in front of him, he probably didn't want to see this, even though he told her it was Kay. This couldn't have been what he wanted to do tonight, and she felt bad for taking his time like this.
Lexi... followed by a sigh caught her attention and she picked her head up from his chest and looked him in the eyes a bit afraid of what he was going to say next. "Of course you can, you can ask me anything," she whispered looking him in the eyes. Water began to form in his eyes and she looked at him with a look of concern. Had she done something to upset him like this? Biting her lip she waited for his question, and finally he asked it. Would she be willing to let him stay? What type of question was that, of course she would. He had already turn down a few of her walls. Biting her lip, she reached and cupped his chin, and then brought his lips to meet hers as her way of saying yes. Her arms wrapped around him and she sat there with him until he got up, standing her up as well and placing her on his feet, so that he was the one dancing.
Her arms wrapped tightly around him, and she leaned into him. They were spinning slowly and she closed her eyes enjoying every bit of the moment. Never had a guy treated her this well. Never had a guy touched her gently like he did. Tilting her head up, she kissed his lips lightly, and then moved her head back to laying against his chest. "No guy has ever touched me this gently, they were always rough and forceful," she whispered into his chest, and then listened to him hum. God did that sound make her smile, it was just so beautiful, and the fact that he was dancing in time with the song made her smile even more.
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Apr 23, 2010 21:41:02 GMT
Post by MAX ETHAN CREE on Apr 23, 2010 21:41:02 GMT
Max smiled to himself. "I would never treat you in such a terrible way. Any man who has or even thinks about it is going to get his ass kicked." He held her closely, and kept dancing. But the smile never faded, she was his and no one would ever hurt her. He felt happy and accepted with Lexi, not like he had to pretend. He held her closely and kissed the top of her head. He was still humming softly, and then he whispered "Honey that's for you...It will be your song." He hoped that would make her happy, after all he saw a smile or a happy look on her face when he hummed it. "Sweetie? Are you warm?" He asked her the question because she was so thin, he wanted her to be warm and not freeze. He grinned then picked her up over his shoulder, then began to walk around the fire. He was laughing and having a great time. He could feel the drugs and booze wearing off but he dint care. Altho he had originally thought of Lexi as a girl he could just get with, she had changed his mind about that. He stopped and set her on the ground, he was still grinning as he leaned in and kissed her gently. He put his hands on her waist and began to tickle her. "I WIN!" He kissed her neck lightly, and began to laugh himself. He pulled her into a hug again, "I think I like coke...and not just the soda." He was trying to lighten the mood, he was probably making himself look like a dork or a freak. But with Lexi he dint care, with her he felt he could be himself. He stopped, then laid next to her. Once he was able to get his guitar he was going to sing her one of the many songs he could play and sing, and once he had lyrics to the song he wrote for her he would sing it to her as well. He snuggled against her; "Honey....Are you staying warm? He winked and grinned, then began to laugh again.
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Apr 24, 2010 4:14:27 GMT
Post by LEXI ROSE MCDANIELS on Apr 24, 2010 4:14:27 GMT
Her eyes found his, and whispered softly, "Do you really mean that... do you really mean your not going to let anyone hurt me? The question hung in the air and she looked up at him, trying to get a read on him, trying to understand what he was thinking about her, or what he thought of her. The smile grew on her face as she was pulled closer to him, and he whispered that the song he was humming was now her song. She brought her hands to his cheeks and kissed his lips, biting on the lower one lightly. Again, he was asking if she was cold, and she couldn't lie, she was freezing. She pulled away and bit her bottom lip and shook her head that no she wasn't warm.
A squeal escaped her lips as he through her over his shoulder, and she began to laugh. Laughing was something that she hadn't done in a while, and it felt strangely good. Her body was laid down on the ground, and his lips met hers again. Everything felt right, and it was strange, but a welcomed feeling. His fingers then made their way to her side, and she winced as he tickled over a bruise, but then bit her lip as he moved down from it and tickled her there. A bout of giggles erupted from behind her teeth, and a grin played on her face, springing from ear to ear, and then his lips caressed her neck. Goosebumps formed on her arms as he kissed her neck, and she closed her eyes, enjoying the feeling.
He was just acting so damn cute, how could she not be falling for him right now. The way he was reacting to the coke was cute as well, and it just made her smile. Everything about this felt right, and she couldn't help but smile. She was so glad that she had came out here, and she was so glad that she had met him. "I'm really not staying warm, but I'm use to it," she whispered moving closer to him, laying her head on his chest. Her hand moved to rub small circles on his chest, and her leg moved to lay on top of his. "I'm so glad I've met you Max, your so amazing."
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Apr 24, 2010 4:59:55 GMT
Post by MAX ETHAN CREE on Apr 24, 2010 4:59:55 GMT
"I swear I wont let anyone hurt you ever, and if anyone trys they will have to go through me first." He kissed her back and pulled her close. He loved it when she bit on his lip. He held her close to him, "Honey I don't want you to be cold, we can go anywhere you want. Just say so and we can leave..." It was then that he had picked her up and then tickled her like crazy. He had suddenly remembered Lexis face when he had tickled her. "Did I hurt you?" He asked her, his tone was flat. If he had hurt her he would never forget himself. "Don't lie to me...Tell me if I hurt you." It was after that statement that he let concern for her safety show on his face. He had a slight frown in his lips, and his eye brows were pulled together.
After she had answered he felt better. Then they were laying on the ground together. He smiled as she drew little circles on his chest, and pulled her closer when her leg was on his. "No...Your amazing. I should be the one who's glad to have met you, and I am. I'm lucky to have met you." He smiled at her, then pulled her onto his chest. He wrapped his arms around her, he was glad he had come out here to party. He laughed at himself, then sat up slowly. "Babe...Do you want to go back to Stanfield? I want you to be warm, I don't want you out here if you cold. And I don't care if your only staying out here because im here." He looked at her with a half smile on his face, and the tone of laughter was in his voice.
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Apr 25, 2010 2:19:59 GMT
Post by LEXI ROSE MCDANIELS on Apr 25, 2010 2:19:59 GMT
He wasn't going to let anyone hurt her, and if they tried they were going to have to go through him, had he really just said that? He had hadn't he. The smile grew, and she couldn't help but blush, he was being like her protector and she really liked the sound of that. No one had said that they were going to protect her, no one had even tried to protect her. The smile dissapeared for a minute as she thought how things would have been different if she had met him before they were both here, before her ex did all those things to her, and if they had met here before the guard took advantage of her. "I wish we would have met sooner....you could have protected me from them," she whispered looking away from him, embarassed of what had happened to her. Surely he would think differently of her, if he knew. Biting her lip, she began to get nervous of him finding out what had happened to her, what if he didn't want to know her, what if he thought it was her fault, thoughts of this nature flew through her mind, and she looked at him again with scared pleading eyes.
Looking at him again, she noticed the concern on his face, and then he told her not to lie to him if he had hurt her. "Handsome, you didn't hurt me, there is just a bruise there. She blushed and hoped that he didn't ask what had happened, she was afraid he would, and then she couldn't lie to him, she would have to tell him. She bit her lip again and then looked away from him, running her hands up and down his chest. She was enjoying laying next to him on the ground even though it was cold. It was nice, her leg over his, his arms around hers. She smiled up at him, hoping that her smiling at him would make him think that everything was okay, and then he wouldn't ask about the bruise.
Stanfield, no she didn't want to go back to that awful place, she hated it there, she would rather freeze to death out here then go back to that hell hole. "No please, i don't want to go back there i hate it here. Honestly, i'm use to being cold, its okay. I'm just scared of that place, i hate it." Her eyes met his, and she hoped that the fear that she was feeling wasn't showing through her eyes, even though it really was. Her hands clung to his shirt, and she buried her head in his chest. The guard might be there and see them, and then do the same thing that he had done before. Her hands clung even tighter to his shirt.
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Apr 29, 2010 17:49:37 GMT
Post by MAX ETHAN CREE on Apr 29, 2010 17:49:37 GMT
Them...Lexi had said something about them..."I know me too- Wait honey...Who is them?" He was ready to kick ass, someone had hurt her and they were going to pay for it. He was fear in her eyes when she spoke about these 'them' people. He held her close, "Lexi theirs nothing to be afraid of, I'm here now." He smiled at her and kissed her nose. He cared for her so much. He held her tightly and close to himself and ran his fingers through her hair.. "Lexi...Do you think....Do you think that we will still be together in the morning?" He looked down at her small frame and smiled shyly, he felt the blush spread under his skin.He felt stupid for asking her that but he couldn't take it back now.
He frowned when she told him that she had a bruise. He looked at her and tilted his head slightly, "Lexi...What happened?" He hoped she would tell him but if she dint he wasn't going to pry it out of her. He just wasn't that kind of guy. He held her against his body and laughed softly when her hands traveled up and down his chest. He felt comforted by the motion, and smiled. He looked down into her face and saw the smile sitting their. "Would that smile be for me?" He joked with her, trying to lighten the mood. He had just assumed the bruise was small and that he wouldn't need to worry about it.
"No please, i don't want to go back there i hate it here. Honestly, I'm use to being cold, its okay. I'm just scared of that place, i hate it." She spoke the words with such fear in her voice. He looked down at her and then saw the sudden fear in her eyes, it terrified even him. He could feel her cling to him as he held her closer. He felt the pressure of her face against his chest. He rand his hands over her back softly, trying to keep her warm. "Honey...Please tell me what happened..." He tried to keep his voice level. He dint want to frighten her anymore, Why do you hate Stanfield so much...Wwhy dose it scare you so badly?" He asked the questions quietly, he held her close and began humming. Maybe if she heard her song once more it would calm her and chase away her fear. He pulled her up his chest so he could look at her face again, he placed a warm smile on his own. He hoped the smile would let her realize that with him she was safe, with him she would always have a safe and warm place to be welcomed and always wanted. He kissed her lips then, ever so softly.
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May 9, 2010 3:28:30 GMT
Post by LEXI ROSE MCDANIELS on May 9, 2010 3:28:30 GMT
Then he asked, who is them, she couldn't lie, she just told him she wouldn't lie to him. Biting her bottom lip, she looked at the ground, ashamed of what had happened to her. Slowly, her lips parted and she began to whisper, "My ex and the guard here..." Her words trailed off, and she didn't look at him, afraid of what he was going to ask next, afraid of him asking what had happened, what they had done. Shivering again, she leaned against him and pulled his jacket tighter around her small frame. Then he told her that there was nothing to be afraid of now because he was here, and again she bit at her bottom lip. "I want us to be together in the morning, but i'm afraid that when you find out what they did, that, that you won't want me," she whispered hosnetly, looking up at him with pleading eyes. She didn't want him to just leave her after she told him everything that those men had done to her, had forced her to do with them. Memories came flooding back, and she shut her eyes tight trying to will them away. However, she wasn't having any luck and she buried her head in his chest again and left it there.
Then he asked, she couldn't lie...she had promised she wouldn't lie. Still, she left her head on his check, and turned so she could speak clearly. "Well the bruise, that is from when i was in the bathroom, i was just having a smoke to calm down, and the guard came in....he came in, and he just smiled, oh god that smile. He walked over to me, and through my bag to the ground and pushed me up against the wall, and i fought, and that's how i got the bruise, he kneed me when i fought. His hands were all over me, they were tearing off my clothes and i couldn't stop him..." she stopped speaking for a moment and looked up at him with pleading eyes, "I didn't want it, i tried to stop him, it was like he was my ex all over again, forcing himself on me, in me. You have to believe me, please believe me, i didn't want it, i wanted him to stop, i tried to get him to stop, but he kept hitting me, my ex did the same thing....i'm so dirty, you must think i'm so dirty..." Again she trailed off and she looked away from him, ashamed of herself. He most certainly wouldn't want her now, he most certainly wouldn't want to be there with her in the morning.
Why did she hate Stanfield? Oh what a loaded question. She looked at him with tears in her eyes, "Because no one believes that the guard did that to me, and they don't believe me when i say he comes back to my room, he knows where my room is." She couldn't hold the tears in her eyes anymore, and they soon began to flow down her cheeks. Ashamed, sad, scared, all were feelings that were flooding her at the moment, and all she wanted was for him to not leave her, although she was most certain that he would.
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May 10, 2010 2:19:38 GMT
Post by MAX ETHAN CREE on May 10, 2010 2:19:38 GMT
He held her close to his chest. He looked into her pleading, frightened eyes. He listened to her story, and felt tears well in his eyes. He buried his face in her hair and cried. "Lexi...I-Im so sorry." He held her tightly, he wasn't crying just because he felt bad about what had happened to her. He was also crying because he wasn't their to save her. "I believe you honey. I believe you." He pulled his face away and ran his fingers through her hair gently."Your not dirty...What happened wasn't your fault, you never once asked him to do what he did." He grinned widely, he was beginning to think of an idea. He held her and then lifted her face to his.
He kissed her gently, and held her close. "I will always want you, I will be their in the morning. Every morning." He kissed all over her face and her neck. He picked her up gently. "Don't ever think I wont want you Lex." He hugged her small frame to his chest, then he stood up. He walked around for a little while and every now and then looked down into her beautiful face. He rocked her slowly and moved closer to the fire. It was all he could do to keep her warm. He never wanted to take her back to that place but he knew he would have to eventually. But he would try to wait for as long as possible.
He was going to kick some ass. He was going to leave that guard for dead. He knew that if he did he would be in massive amounts of trouble, but if in the end it would keep Lexi safe then he would do it. He kissed her forehead and cradled her in his arms. He thought to himself that he might be falling in love. He whispered to her, "Like I said. I'm here now and I'm not going to let anything hurt you." He was going to show everyone that no one was to mess with Lexi. She was protected now. "Honey I'm sorry that they did that to you, the guard and your ex. But I swear to you I will never ever lay a hand on you in violence. I will never lay a hand on you unless you allow me to."
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May 12, 2010 23:18:08 GMT
Post by LEXI ROSE MCDANIELS on May 12, 2010 23:18:08 GMT
Lexi looked into his eyes, and saw tears begin to form. She felt bad, she did not want to make him cry, she did not want to make him sad, not ever. Then, he buried his face in her hair, and she clung to him tightly, never wanting to let him go, never wanting him to let her go. Then he pulled his head from her hair, and ran his hands through her hair, god did she love that, it made her feel so warm inside. "your not dirty...." the words sounded amazing coming from him, and she so desperately wanted to believe him, but she knew she was. They were the reason she wasn't a virgin anymore. "He took my virginity, how does that not make me dirty, i didn't fight hard enough, i tried, he just kept hitting, he broke my ribs." Looking up at him, she wiped at her eyes embarrassed by the tears that were beginning to cloud her vision. She didn't want to cry in front of him, but she just couldn't help it. Before, she had tried to tell people what had happened but no one listened. It was why she began to stop eating, and she began to snort coke to deal with the hunger pangs.
He pulled her close to him, and she nuzzled her body against his. Then he gently kissed her lips and she kissed his back. Whenever he kissed her, she felt as if she was in heaven, everything felt so right with him, and she hoped he was sincere when he said he would be there every morning. Then his lips kissed all over her face and her neck, and she ran her hands through his hair loving the feeling, and lightly kissing his neck back. Soon he was carrying her around, and she laid against his chest loving every second of it. Looking up again she whispered, "I can't believe you can pick my fat ass up," she said with a laugh, pushing her hair out of her face. Then he was rocking her, and they were close to the fire, she closed her eyes and sighed happily. "I love this Max, i love it so much, I feel so safe with you."
He was now cradling her in his arms like a baby, and she nuzzled her head against his chest. No one had held her for as long as she could remember, and to be quite honest, she wanted him to never let her go, to stay out here with her forever, laying with her forever, holding her forever. Was this love? Could she love? She had no idea. "Your my knight in shining armor," she whispered kissing his neck lightly, running her hands up and down his chest. God did everything feel right, it was knew to her for things to feel okay like this.
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May 18, 2010 21:05:14 GMT
Post by MAX ETHAN CREE on May 18, 2010 21:05:14 GMT
He shook his head, "He can only take away the physical aspect of it. If you believe in your heart that you still are then you are. He can never take away something you give. And honey I know you fought your hardest, he just fought that much harder." H knew that she could talk all she wanted but he would never thing of her as dirty. In his mind if you dint give it away then you still have it. Even if it was 'taken' from you. It was just the physical, not the mental. And in his mind she still was a virgin.
He kissed her and held her, he laughed when she called herself fat. "Baby your not fat...and even if you were I wouldn't care." He smiled and thought of something funny. "Do you know how to stop a knock-knock joke in its tracks?" He hoped she would say no, every one who was hearing it for the first time always found the 'joke' funny. He snuggled her, and rubbed her face against her neck and in her hair.
"I'm glad you feel safe with me honey. I want you to feel safe around me. I don't want to scare you." But he closed his mouth and looked right at her when he called her a knight in shining armor. That he was not, he knew he could never be that. He could never be someones knight, he just wasn't that strong enough. I mean yes physically he was but mentally...He couldn't even save himself let alone someone else. He kissed her forehead gently. "Thank you honey, but I'm no knight in shining armor...If anything your a light that has brightened my world."
He wondered if he was falling in love with her. He dint know this new feeling that was rushing over him, but he liked it. It made him smile. It made him happy. It made him feel that someone cared for him and that they were fine with what he could give them. He was happy with Lexi and he was content that he dint feel this overwhelming need to drown himself in alcohol. He was happy that he dint feel like he needed to have sex with her to feel like he meant something to her. Because he felt that she felt that he meant something to her.
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May 19, 2010 22:38:01 GMT
Post by LEXI ROSE MCDANIELS on May 19, 2010 22:38:01 GMT
Lexi buried her head in his chest, and she let the tears pour. She was ashamed of herself, and of everything that had happened to her. Deep down she always thought that she could have fought harder, she could have done more to stop them and that is was indeed her fault. "I just wanted so badly for him to stop, and it seemed like the more i screamed and yelled, the more he liked and kept going..." again her words trailed off and she looked up at him afraid of what she would see in his eyes, afraid that he would reject her now.
Again, his lips touched her, and she smiled snuggling into his chest wincing as she hit another bruise doing so. "Your just being nice, you know i look like a whale," she whispered not meeting his eyes afraid that, that was indeed what he thought. As her eyes lingered on his face, she watched as the corners of his mouth began to turn up into a small smile and he proceeded to speak. "No, i don't know what stops a knock knock joke in its tracks," she whispered with a small laugh. She hoped this was funny, but she was almost certain that it would be, and if it wasn't Max would probably make it funny anyways.
He shook his head and looked her, and all she could do was disagree with him. "Max, to me you are my knight in shinning armor, and you always will be," she whispered looking him straight in the eye, begging that he would believe her. To her, he was everything that a knight in shining armor should be. He was handsome, strong, caring, charismatic, funny, smart, and kind. He was almost perfect it was so incredible.
Again, Lexi snuggled into him and she tried to ignore the pain that was present in her ribs. Slowly, she leaned in and kissed his lips lightly, biting down on the bottom one. There was something about him that just drew her to him, she didn't want him to let her go. Slowly, she moves so that her face is hidden in his chest again. She was turing bright red and she was afraid that he was going laugh even more if he got to see.
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