Love Me, Hold me (nathan)

[ELLA QUINN MILLER]

I'M BRUISED AND SCARRED
save me from this broken heart
ALL MY LOVE WILL SLOWLY FADE
& F A L L A P A R T
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Guitar in hand Ella made her way out to the flower gardens. She was finally having a good day, or maybe it was whatever medication they had her all hopped up on. It was enough to drive anyone crazy just being pretty well a guinea pig for the doctors as they tried to cure her. Wasn't going to happen, as long as she knew it was her fault that Jason had died. Tossing her long blonde hair over her shoulder she found a bench to sit down on and placed her guitar in her lap. There seemed to be quite a few people around, but none of course that she knew, she had only been here less than a week, and her brother's welcome had been less than happy. She had been shocked when he had yelled at her and claimed that Jason had been sleeping around on her. She had known that Ethan hated Jason, and the fact that she had spent so much time with him, yet she was the only one who knew that Ethan was the one that started the fire. That night was the worst night of her life, and the start of her Arsonphobia and shortly after her Schizophrenia.

Placing her pic in her mouth she adjusted her guitar and then started to strum a few chords before singing softly to a song she had been composing. The song was about her relationship with her brother, about how he was part of why she had not been able to have a normal childhood. It was about why her life had been such a rollercoaster from the age of five. She was about halfway through it when she decided she hated the song and let out a sigh. " Damnit." she set the guitar down and her head in her hands. " this is ridiculous...I can't do this." It had become so difficult for her to enjoy playing her music anymore. Her muse was gone, it had left her so long ago, and now all she had was an emptiness inside that she wished she could fill.

Looking around quickly for any staff, she didn't see anyone, so she reached into her bag, pulling out some pain pills, dry swallowing a couple of them she dropped the bottle back into the bag and pulled her hair up into a ponytail. The screaming was back in her mind and it took all she had to ignore it, that was why she needed the pills, she had stolen them from her mother before she had come here, several a month until she had come here. she had them all in a bottle with her name on it, from when she had been in so much pain after the fire, so that if anyone caught her she could claim they were hers anyway, and then she could stay out of trouble...like she cared.

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TAGNATHAN
WORD COUNT 486
STATUS complete
OUTFIT pretty
NOTES first post on site
CREDIT justlikefalling @ caution 2.0
LYRICS bruised & scarred , MAYDAY PARADE

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[NATHAN CHARLES SUMMERS]

Nathan was out in the flower garden as he just wanted to be left alone as he had heard a rumour that the slut called Ava had left her assaulting boy friend for someone that she had shagged in the fountain of the town. Of course he knew that it was true about her shagging someone in the fountain as that was him, he sort of guessed that she would leave him from the things that they talked about while having sex. The thing that made Nathan just lash out in the middle of the class what the fact that the boy had called Ava a slut. He would of done it anyway besides which of his friends it was but since it is his friend that he has been thinking about more and more recently, Nathan wouldn't take any of it. "What should I do, I have about two hours until my detention for getting into the fight over Ava" Nathan said as he sat up.

Nathan heard something that he didn't to often hear someone playing the guitar while playing a song so he followed where the voice came from and he stood by a tree not to far away from the female that the voice had came from. Nathan pulled a cigarette from his fresh new packet and lit it while he stuck it in his mouth as he continued to listen to the song while smoking the cigarette. Nathan smiled when the song had finished, even though the song wasn't that bad he wouldn't admit it. After he had finished the cigarette he walked over to Ella as he sang the song that she had been singing, then he sat down opposite her "The song is something personal to you so why didn't you finish the song. Because isn't that what you musicians do all the time either sing songs, play instruments or writing songs" Nathan asked.

[ELLA QUINN MILLER]

I'M BRUISED AND SCARRED
save me from this broken heart
ALL MY LOVE WILL SLOWLY FADE
& F A L L A P A R T
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Looking up quickly at the male voice she shook her head quickly, blonde locks hitting either side of her face. " I don't know...I mean its going some what well I guess, but Im not sure I love it really." she shrugged and her blue eyes locked on his a this question. "That's not all I do...music is something I love, but It's not all there is in my life." she frowned, so many people seemed to think that was all musicians were about, the music. There was so much more to Ella, she was a painter, loved to read, she loved to dance, there was just so much more than music. " Im Ella by the way, Ella Miller." she tossed her hair over her shoulder again and glanced at her guitar. " Sometimes the music just isn't enough." The pills were starting to kick in, and she was sure her eyes were probably glazed over as she looked him over. " How old are you anyway?" he looked really young compared to her, but Ella was throughly friendly to most people, and this boy was no exception. He was cute in a little brother type way, and she couldn't help but flash a smile at him. She always wanted another brother, but her own was so much to have to deal with, no way would she have been able to handle another.

Picking up the guitar again she sighed, " I don't know if I can work on it anymore." she started quietly playing one of her favorite pieces that she liked to play. Stairway to Heaven by Led Zepplin was not typically something most people would expect Ella to play, but it was one of the first songs she tried to learn. It had taken so much out of her when she spent hours upon hours working on it when she was younger, all until she learned it. It was her brother who had inspired her to learn it, and playing it now she had a big smile on her face. As she finished it up, it was a very long song, she turned to Nathaniel. " What do you think?" she was always curious to get a critique after she played, and though he didn't seem to care all that much for musicians, he seemed to have been enjoying her playing earlier, so she figured one little song wouldn't hurt.

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TAGNATHAN
WORD COUNT 408
STATUS complete
OUTFIT pretty
NOTES first post on site
CREDIT justlikefalling @ caution 2.0
LYRICS bruised & scarred , MAYDAY PARADE

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[NATHAN CHARLES SUMMERS]

"Hey it isn't very bad, I reckon that over time you have what it takes to make it all the way to the top, but if you don't like it then it is up to you. I guess that song writers don't like all of the songs that they write, but I reckon the song that you where singing was good" Nathan said as he gave her a big grin on his face as he took in her appearance and blinked because of the fact that her dress and shoes where bright yellow in the sun light then he looked up at her face as he took in her features and looked at her eyes a he bit his bottom lip as he did have to admit that she could be a popular if she wanted to as she did have the looks to be one and if he hadn't seen and heard her singing and playing the guitar then he would of thought that she is a popular student. "Hey the musicians in my old school are like that so don't blame me for thinking all musicians are like that" Nathan said as he let out a sigh. "I am sixteen, so how old are you" Nathan said with a slight flirtation tone in his voice.

"You are a good musician Ella. For the record my name is Nathan Charles Summers" Nathan said as he smiled at her as it was the truth she is a good singer. Nathan walked round to her as he sat down next to her as he picked up her guitar from her songs and started to play New Divide by Linkin Park. Even though this is probably the only song he can actually play since Ashley taught him to play it and it was the only song he ever bothered to learn. Nathan smiled as he sang along to it "So what did you think of that then" Nathan said as he put the guitar down in front of her "So Ella how long have you been in this dumb Asylum and if you do not mind me asking why are you in here for" Nathan asked politely as he was curious about her as he couldn't tell why she was in here.

[ELLA QUINN MILLER]

I'M BRUISED AND SCARRED
save me from this broken heart
ALL MY LOVE WILL SLOWLY FADE
& F A L L A P A R T
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Shrugging she heard a voice in her head tell her that she was to blame, always to blame for the fire that took Jason's life. IT so randomly would pop in at times, especially when she was talking to a boy. "Stop it." she muttered to the voice before turning to Nathan, " Um...well I suppose I will like it eventually, with a few changes and such, but right now I absolulty don't like it." she ran her fingers through her blond hair, and smoothed out a wrinkle in the yellow skirt. " sorry i just don't like stereotypes, I've dealt with them my whole life." she smiled at him though, feeling bad that she had been kind of rude, but it was something she hated more than anything, being lumped into a clique. Sure she was a musician but there was so much more to her, She loved photography, loved hanging out with her friends (at least she used to) and just being herself. She knew she could fit in with the populars easily, but she wasn't sure where she really belonged. " I'm nineteen actually." she shrugged, she knew she didn't really look her age.

Blushing scarlet as he complimented her she smiled, " Thank you, thats very sweet of you. Nice to meet you Nathan." she watched as he walked over to sit next to her. He was defenintly one of the populars, he fit that group well with his looks and the way he carried himself. Normally she would have been upset that someone just took her guitar like that, but she was in a good mood for the most part, even though the voice was getting more and more menacing in her mind. " stop it..stop." she muttered to it but then he started playing and she listened quietly, very impressed with his playing. " Very nice nathan."she smiled at him. Frowning though when he asked why she was there she sighed, " Ive only been here a few weeks, i have Arsonphobia and schizophrenia." she looked down at a faint burn scar on her arm and rubbed at it. " My boyfriend and I were at his house and someone set it on fire. Jason got me outside, and his dog was beside me, though he thought he was still inside and ran back in after him. Jason died in the fire. I tried to go back in after him, had second degree burns on my arms and my back was hit by a falling rafter and had third degree burns. My family always has had money so they paid to get me surgery after surgery to try to minimize the scarring. My lower back is scarred pretty badly." she frowned. Part of her condition made her see the scars as much worse than they really were, and the ones on her arms were now barely visible, though the ones on her back were still pretty bad.

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TAGNATHAN
WORD COUNT 408
STATUS complete
OUTFIT pretty
NOTES first post on site
CREDIT justlikefalling @ caution 2.0
LYRICS bruised & scarred , MAYDAY PARADE

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[NATHAN CHARLES SUMMERS]

"Hey Ella it is really up to you on what you do to the song but I reckon that you shouldn't listen to anyone else Ella..." Nathan said as he sat on the bench so he was sitting in front of Ella then he placed his hand on where Ella's heart is "You should always listen to you heart over other people as your heart will always be with you and other people may be just using you for your songs" Nathan said as he removed his hand. "I am so sorry for being such a stereotype to you but the thing that is bugging me loads is why are you being put in the musician clique when with your looks you could be a popular so easily" Nathan said as he moved his hand up to her cheek as he tucked some hair behind her ear before he started to stroke her cheek gently as he didn't want to hurt her.

"Well I am such a sweet guy once you are on my good side, and it is a plus that you are on my good side after only just recently meeting me" Nathan said flirting with her as he wondered if she had a boyfriend or if she has a over protective older brother. Nathan looked away from Ella then back to her when she told him that she has arsonphobia and schizophrenia, it is just great that he isn't aloud to have a cigarette or light up his lighter as she is afraid of fire, but he is hoping that she is not one of the mad people who have schizophrenia. Nathan leaned in to kiss Ella as he wanted to but then she told him the story of her ex boyfriend so he pulled away "I am sorry for trying to kiss you Ella, I should of asked if it is all right with you" Nathan said as he bit his bottom lip "So can I give you a kiss Ella or not as I want it to be up to you" Nathan said.

[ELLA QUINN MILLER]

I'M BRUISED AND SCARRED
save me from this broken heart
ALL MY LOVE WILL SLOWLY FADE
& F A L L A P A R T
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" I know I shouldn't its just that I want to make things perfect. I am a bit of a perfectionist i guess." she shrugged again, it was nice to talk to someone and she was enjoying Nathan's company. She flinched a bit when he touched her, not used to someone touching her but she got over it quickly. Looking down at his hand she sighed, " I know I need to listen to my heart, its just sometimes my heart tells me what my head thinks is wrong. Does that make any sense?" she listened to his explanation as to what was bothering him and frowned, " Probably because I love music and am always playing. I know my looks would probably lump me in with the Populars, but honestly I don't really care about any of that, I love music, and a few other things it just doesnt make me who I am." she blushed as he pushed her hair out of her face and ran his hand across her cheek.

" Your good side? What's your bad side Nathan?" she hadn't heard anyone say something like that to her before so it was a bit odd to her, but she believed it. She did realize that he was flirting with her, which made her turn a little red. She hadn't had someone flirt that openly with her this quickly in a long time, it was kinda cute. Her eyes grew wide as he leaned in to kiss her, as she hadn't kissed anyone since Jason. " I...um...its ok." she didn't think he had to apologize but she was very nervous. Shaking a bit as she hadn't been in this situation in a long time. There there was Ethan, her brother would likely hurt Nathan if he even saw them talking to eachother. She wasn't sure what to say as he asked her to kiss her, so she just nodded slowly, scared to death but she would let him.

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TAGNATHAN
WORD COUNT 408
STATUS complete
OUTFIT pretty
NOTES first post on site
CREDIT justlikefalling @ caution 2.0
LYRICS bruised & scarred , MAYDAY PARADE

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[NATHAN CHARLES SUMMERS]

"Well then I guess that it is good that you are a bit of a perfectionist as I reckon that you like to be ready when you play your music for a group of people. But at the moment you don't reckon that the music is good enough for any groups to hear. Just keep working on it and guaranteed that you will eventually get your music up to the standard that you like to play at" Nathan said smiling at her as he could just be friendly with her. "Well that is very hard to chose then as my heart is telling me to just kiss you here and not but my mind is telling me not to. So I guess when that time comes for you you should chose what you want to do as I chose that I will kiss you if you let me" Nathan said.

"You should be glad that you only know my good side as it is my bad side that got me put in this hell hole. You see I have anger management what I can control but if I am in a bad enough mood I will just release my anger on who ever is around. You see about a year ago I had persuaded my closest friend to have an abortion because she was pregnant, through that we became a couple but some people from our class thought that it would be funny to kidnap Ashley and chain her up then to take it in turns to rape her. I went there to face the leader of the group but I let my anger out which led me to go overboard which resulted in me killing him" Nathan said as he looked away quite ashamed of it as he is a murderer. Nathan turned back to Ella as he saw her nodding so he moved his other hand up to her other cheek "If you want to stop just pull away" Nathan said as he leaned in and gently pressed his lips to his as his hand let go of her cheek as they wrapped around her neck as he deepened the kiss.