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Silhouette was a quiet girl new to the academy. Her vast number of scars could be seen on her arms. Sometimes if you looked long enough you could pick out words that had been carved in. She had longish pink hair and crystal clear blue eyes. Today she wore skinny pink jeans, a band shirt that read "Three Days Grace" on it, as well as a pair of high top chucks that were a faded black color. She had a pair of retro headphones on and was blaring her music. "Oh how I'll hate it here. This is no better than the last hospital I was checked in to..." Silhouette thought. She was probably right too. She wondered the halls, eyes down cast and half closed. She didn't care where she was going. Just moving to move. She walked slowly swaying to the beat of her music. Sometimes at the chorus she sang along in a quiet voice. She had talent in singing but refused to show anyone, except for Oliver. She thought she heard his voice saying “Sing out Sil! Your voice is amazing!” She turned to where the voice had came from and soon realized it was just another hallucination or maybe this time it was a day dream, she couldn’t tell anymore. It was either the drugs or her mind or both that seemed to slur happiness in her life and slur the reality around her.

The day seemed to lag on and on. She couldn't rest in her dorm for fear of someone yelling and hurting her. She always had that fear. Since she was always bullied at school. They pulled her hair, gave her bruises and sometimes forced her to hurt her self. She cried a lot during those times. The only person who saved her from some of the worst situations were Oliver. He would rush in and start yelling at time, screaming to "LEAVE HER ALONE!" and then turning with those loving green eyes to ask if she was alright. She prayed that those times would soon be over here. Though she expected not much of that happened here. Since they all had issues and what not.

Silhouette walked down the lonesome halls with her daydream hallucinations of Oliver and of the pretty dancers that surrounded her as she sang to her songs. She was a poetic soul, and made up songs sometimes like the musicians did. She had a starstuck look on her face as she slipped in and out of reality. A dreamy haze began to surround her as she walked down hall after hall, in and out of rooms, not paying any attention to anyone or anything. She assumed they weren't actually there since they drifted by her on little clouds of hot pink air. She did know some fiction from fact.

Admist her day dreams she started to have terrors. She would blink and see a dark figure in one corner of the room. He beckond to her and she worriedly walked away. But then he would appear infront of her, hovering like a tower. Silhouette would turn and run from him. Everywhere she looked she saw nothing but this dark man. She couldn't escape! She began to run wildly hands over her ears trying to block what the man was saying. It only seemed to get louder and louder! She wanted to scream, tears poured down her face.

Suddenly she bumped in to something solid. Frightened she took a step back and looked up. Silhouette wiped the tears from her eyes and hugged the random person as if clinging on for dear life. She didn't know who they were or how they'd react but she just needed this. "Please!" she began to sob. "Don't let the scary man get me!" She sounded so childish. Silhouette realized what she was doing and pulled away. She wiped the tears from her eyes and looked down at her feet, glancing around for the man. He was gone. "Just a terror..." she realized. She looked sheepishly up at the person she'd just randomly hugged. "Uhm..." she stammered. "Sorry..." She quickly took steps back with her head down and wiped away the last of her tears.

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Max had actually been having a good day so far, despite the fact that he had been taken away from his little sister. He really did not miss his parents at all but all he had was his sister; it was the thought of her that kept him going every day he was here. Before he had been sent away she had given him her New York hoodie; which was a small but fit him all the same. He was very skinny for a boy so no one had figured that the hoodie was actually for a girl. Not that it mattered because no one really gave a damn what other people put on day in and day out. He was really concerned on another issue that had suddenly reared its ugly head finally after fourteen years. Upon arriving to this crappy place he had started to question his sexual preference. He had never thought about it before and yet now he was thinking about it every day. He had heard things on tv saying how society dictated that he should like girls and that be that. But for all he knew society was wrong and boys were the way to go. He knew that sooner or later he would have to experiment with both genders just to get an idea. The whole day he had been thinking this and how to go about it. His social anxiety and his trouble speaking with cute girls would make getting laid rather difficult. Sure he had been called cute by both boys and girls and he had reacted all the same.

He was not sure at the moment but he really thought that he liked boys and girls the same; which was a term he believed to be called bi-sexual. Frankly he did not see anything wrong with that because he always had options. His recent thoughts bothered him a little because he had never had them before. Sex, orgies, blowjobs and all the other things had never occurred to him in all fourteen years of his life. He had spent most of the day in his room just drawing random things in order to get his mind off of those sorts of perverted things. Eventually when he started to make vague sketches of naked guys and girls he knew that it was time to take a break. Grabbing some random clothes he dressed and then debated if he wanted to wear his sister’s favorite hoodie. The whole reason he had it was so he would never forget her. In exchange he had given her his favorite hoodie; that way they would be connected in memory at the very least. Finally he put it on and made his way out of his room, locking the door and putting the key in his jean pocket. So distracted with his thoughts he just looked at the floor as he walked; hoping that he did not run into anyone that would want to take advantage of him.

Without warning he felt someone bump into him and the next thing he knew he was being hugged. He looked up to see it was a very cute girl which made him nearly freeze up. She wept against his shirt and said random things that just made him even more confused. Finally she realized where she was and pulled back, wiping the tears away from her eyes. She was very cute but also in distress; most likely she needed someone to comfort her. When she took a few steps back he stepped closer to her, cured of his shyness for an unexplainable reason. “No…. its okay”; he said in a quiet voice as he moved his hand closer to lift her face up so he could see her again. He smiled reassuringly as he wiped the tears she had missed away. It was a random gesture that he would have other wise been unable to do, but her distress just pushed his fear away for the moment. Walking closer he wrapped his arms around her in a hug, not really caring that he should be afraid to talk to her. “What’s wrong?”; he asked softly so he could try and cheer her up.



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Sil was surprised as the boy stepped closer to her. Fear welled up inside her, making her want to run, but her feet felt like led. “No.… its okay” the boy had said. She bit her tongue thinking “How is it okay? I don’t even know you… And this hallucination is scaring me to death.” but stopped thinking all together when she felt his hand lifting her face up. She flinched away a little afraid of being hurt, closing her eyes waiting for a blow. When it didn’t come she slowly reopened her eyes to find him wiping away the left over tears. She blushed as she really noticed him for the first time. He was very good looking and kind hearted to match. She was studying his face thinking about him when she was suddenly looking at his shoulder, being hugged. She flinched again from the hug then slowly let her arms wrap around him and lean against him some. She wanted to melt as the barrier around her began to come down.

Sil look slightly happier until he asked her what was wrong. She hesitated, biting her lip and clamming up a little. She looked over his shoulder and saw the man from her terrors… the same man with that evil grin and a lustful look in his eye. She nearly screamed as he mouthed “You’re going to be next… I’m going to kill you next.” Sil watched him with wide eyes, the blood draining from her face. “That… Man…” she gasped. Her breathing was harder and fear was written all over her face. She slammed her eyes closed and buried her face in the boy’s jacket. “Don’t let him get me! Please! He wants to kill me!” she said in a muffled cry. Opening her eyes again and looking up, the man was gone yet again. She let out her breath and looked very worried. “I have the same terror… That some strange man is going to come kill me… He shows up everywhere I am if I let my mind wonder… He was there, just now… Behind you! Mouthing that he was going to kill me next.” she explained, tears falling from her eyes again. What Sil didn’t know was that this man was a suppressed memory from long ago. This man was the one who had left a scar on Sil’s left shoulder. She couldn’t put the pieces together as she couldn’t fully remember. She only saw him in her worst of nightmares and hallucinations. The older she got the worst the terrors became. Her parents never told her why she had these dreams. When she’d finished crying for a second time today, she rested her head on the boy’s shoulder, hugging him a little tighter. She was quiet as she listened to his heart beat, her own beating faster.

Sil looked around and sighed in relief. “Thank you… For saving me… From myself…” she said quietly, blushing again. She did something very out of character for her next. She leaned up and kissed the boy’s cheek. Then she pulled away from the warm, safe, reassuring embrace, blushing deeply. “Sorry…” she mumbled, unsure of the reaction she’d get from him. “I…I’m Silhouette… Sil for short.” she said nervously waiting for a reaction. Sil bit her lip, almost regretting what she’d done. But hey. There’s a first for everything right?

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Max listened to the girls words and frowned a little bit, his desire to help her grew stronger and stronger as she grew sadder and sadder. As he lifted her chin he noticed how she flinched even though he had no intention of harming her in anyway. She finally reopened her eyes and he smiled again; glad to see that she wasn’t afraid of him. He had no idea what was bothering her but he just wanted to make it all better; he had no idea why but it was just a strong feeling in his heart. He could not help but notice as she flinched again when he went in to hug her. At first he thought she was going to try and pull away but he smiled a bit as he felt her arms wrap around him as she leaned against him a bit. If there was one thing he learned was that hugging someone when they were upset always made them feel a little better. Hugging someone showed that they were not alone; something that he felt a lot these days. Everything seemed to be going well and he thought that she was going to be okay.

Then as she looked over his shoulder he noticed as her eyes widened and how she nearly screamed in terror. After her freaked out words she shut her eyes and buried her face in his hoodie and he just hugged her even tighter. “He won’t get you, I promise”;

[/color] he said in a quiet voice as he continued to comfort her best he could. He had no idea what she was talking about because he knew for certain that there was no one behind him. She opened her eyes again and looked behind him, confirming that there was no one behind them. She started to cry again and he just gently kissed her on the forehead; trying to tell her that it would be alright. “Hey I am here now, your safe”;[/color] he said in a comforting voice. He just stood there holding her while she cried; willing to wait until she finished before he spoke again. Finally she stopped and rested her head on his shoulder again; hugging him tighter. He smiled as he hugged her back; glad to see that she was not crying anymore. She thanked him and he just smiled again; it was no big deal to him anyways. “You are quite welcome”;[/color] he said in a caring voice. What she did next caught him off guard, as he felt her lips against his cheek he just blushed.

He had to admit it was very random but it had felt nice; he had never been kissed on the cheek before. As she pulled away he felt bad and he looked as she blushed back; knowing how embarrassed she must have felt. “It’s nice to meet you Sil, I am Max”;[/color] he said as he stepped closer to her again. There was nothing to be sorry for simply because he had liked the kiss on his cheek. “Don’t be sorry, that kiss felt nice”;[/color] he said as he wrapped his arms around her again embracing her into another hug. He put his chin on top of her head and nuzzled against her. “I am not the kind of boy that gets mad at an innocent kiss on the cheek”;[/color] he said softly. He would never admit that he had never kissed a girl before but he figured by the way he blushed it would be obvious to her. He gently patted her back and then rubbed it; wondering if he would actually be able to comfort her. The only girl he had comforted before was his little sister; but she was family and that just felt natural to him.



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Sil blushed as he moved closer to her yet again. "Max... That's a nice name..." she said as he embraced her again. Anyone walking by would think that they were lovers. Sil laughed to herself at the thought. "Us? Lovers? Never gonna happen." she thought not because she didn't like him or think he was cute and kind, but because she knew better than to get her hopes up about that. She'd never been in a relationship before and was almost sure that she'd never get a chance with someone like this boy... Max. She made a mental note to connect the name with the face and remember it so she wouldn't look too stupid. She blushed as he nuzzled against her and she ended up hugging him again feeling strange. "What is this feeling? It so warm..." she wondered. It felt like she was compleat for once. She didn't know it at the time but it was the beginning of a strong bond between the two of them.

The longer she stood there hugging Max the more she wanted to spill her guts to him and tell him everything about her. She wanted him to know her fully and compleatly. She bit her tongue resisting the ever growing urge to tell him atleast why she was here, why she had so many scars, or maybe even why she was so depressed. She knew better because she wasn't sure she could trust him yet. But what harm was there in telling him why she was here? They were all here because they were unstable and needed help.

"Depression, paranioa, and hallucinations." she whispered to him. She wanted to say "This is why I'm here. Why is someone as kind as you in here? but it was too late now. She hoped he'd understand. She pulled away some, wanting to sit down. She was getting tired of standing, but she didn't want to leave his arms yet. Finally she pulled away and moved under a window, sitting down and patting the space next to her. She was so nervous and couldn't really think straight. She bit her lip and wondered what it would be like to feel his lips on hers. She'd kissed a girl once in a game of Truth Or Dare, but that had ended baddly. She hadn't ever kissed a boy. She blushed again at the thought and turned her mind to something else. She serched her mind desprately for a topic to talk about. Finally she settled on colors. She liked colors so that was always interesting. She knew that the innocent topic would lead to other topics that would help her get to know him.

"So... Uhm... Max... What's you're favorite color? I like rainbows, but blue is my number one favorite!" Sil asked shyly with a little innocent smile on her face. As hard as she tried her mind kept wondering back to the thought of kissing him. She wondered if he had a girlfriend or if he'd ever go for a cutter. She wondered if maybe he'd give her a reason to stop just as Oliver had. As she wondered these things she absently stared ahead starting to zone out. She snapped back and shook her head, blinking a few time. "Huh? Oh... Uhm... Sorry... Just thinking again..." she apologized. She felt bad for zoning out on Max. She didn't want to appear rude or like he was boring her. On the contrary, he was going to be one of the most interesting things or people that she'd met or known or found. She smiled lightly and scooted closer to him.

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WARRIOR POET ONCE SAID ,
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Max noticed as Sil blushed again as he moved closer to her; and he had to admit she just looked as cute as her cheeks turned red. “Thanks, I like your name too”; he said in a quiet voice as they continued to stand there with her wrapped in his arms. He felt as she hugged him back and he had to admit that it felt really nice. He had hugged a few girls before but hugging her just made him feel at peace; he felt so warm and he could not explain why. If he had known that this was the start of something wonderful between them he would have tried to find her sooner. Normally he was just too freaking shy around cute girls but this situation was different. The silence was nice but he felt the urge to say something to break the silence. He opened his mouth and was about to say something when he heard her whisper to him. She did not say much but he knew that she just told him the reason she was here. As she pulled away from he pouted a little bit because the feeling had been so good. But she patted the spot next to her and he smiled as he went to sit down next to her.

Next thing he knew she was asking what his favorite color was and he honestly had to think about it for a minute. He smiled at her innocent little smile; the desire to press his lips against hers grew a little stronger. He blushed and tried to get the thought out of his head, there was no way that she would go for him. He was just a scrawny little teen who was confused about his own sexual preference; not the most appealing boyfriend type in his mind. “My favorite color is either blue or purple, they are both nice colors”;

[/color] he said in a soft voice as he kept smiling at her. After that they sat in silence for a few minutes; he was so lost in his own thoughts that he did not even notice she had zoned out until she said something about it. He just shook his head a bit and let out a little laugh. “That’s okay Sil, I was too”;[/color] he said in a quiet voice. Yeah he had been thinking about kissing her but he knew that he was not that bold. He saw how she scooted closer to him and he just grinned a bit as he scooted closer to her in return. Oh how he just wanted to kiss her cheek once; just to know what it was like to kiss a girl for once in his life.

Throwing caution to the wind he leaned closer to her and gently kissed her on the cheek; his face turning bright red as he pulled away. He pouted a bit after wards and then scooted away from her; he felt so stupid for doing that since he just met her. “Sil…. I….I’m sorry”;[/color] he said in a quiet voice as he looked away. Yeah it was only a kiss on the cheek but he felt like he had just done something horrible. Sure she had kissed him on the lips but that had felt nice; he supposed that he just had some screwed up logic about kisses. All he knew was that he could not even look at her anymore; she had confided in him and he had just kissed her without even asking. She probably hated him now; maybe that it would just be best to leave and never bother her again. Sighing to himself he just figured it was time to get up and go; maybe she would follow him to slap him or not. He just waited for Sil to react before he decided what to do; hopefully she wouldn’t be too hard on him.



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Sil made a mental note to remember his favorite colors. They might come in handy some time. She smiled a little; glad she wasn't the only one who zoned out from time to time. She wondered what he was thinking about. "Not me." she guessed to herself. That is... Until he leaned over and kissed her cheek. Maybe she was what he was thinking about. This was a very strange thing to her because she'd never think herself as attractive or girlfriend material. She was so unstable sometimes... She knew that she needed to work for herself and not for others. Though that got hard and old fast.

Sil sat in shock, her mouth slightly open, her face blood red, and her eyes wide like a deer in headlights. She kept thinking “Oh… My… God… He… He kissed me! Me! He actually… Wow!” in a loop. She blinked a few times moments later, the shocked stare turning in to a small smile that grew as she glance over at him. Her whole face seemed to light up and she wondered “If this is what a kiss on the cheek can do to me… Then what would it be like to kiss his lips?” She noticed how he moved away and looked away “Sil.... I.... I’m sorry.” she heard him say, but it barely registered in her mind. She bit her lip still smiling and wondered what to say. Should she tell him how that one innocent little kiss on the cheek made her heart soar and beat a million miles a second? Or should she play it cool like this happened all the time to her? She decided against both ideas Just act natural.” she told herself. She turned to him and rubbed the back of her head, a silly nervous habit she had when trying to find something to say when she was in a good mood or when she liked something or someone and didn’t want to say anything.
“No, no! It’s fine!” Sil said, leaning back against the wall her smile still intact. She’d never felt this happy except when she found inspiration for a new song or poem and could really put the words and melodies together just right. She scooted close to Max and lifted one hand up to turn his face to hers. “Max… I’m not the kind of girl who gets mad at an innocent kiss on the cheek.” she told him, feeding his own words back to him with a genuine smile that was a rare sight to see. She bit her lip again (She really had to stop doing that if she was going to get it pierced…) thinking how much the urge to kiss his lips had grown. She finally threw caution to the wind just as he had done, and placed a hand on his cheek, turning his face to hers and nervously leaned into him, hesitating for a split second before pushing doubts and reason out of her mind and pressed her lips against his. She let her eyes close and felt her whole body tingle. In the few seconds that seemed to stop time all together Sil thought of an old classic song she’d found. It was originally in French, as she was a French geek in school, but had found an English version that described the moment perfectly. “When you kiss me heaven sighs, and though I close my eyes I see la vie en rose.” the song sang in her mind, which held true to this moment. She swore she’d heard heaven sigh and life suddenly seemed bright and cheery. All she could think was how she never wanted this moment to end.

Sil pulled back after what felt like a life time, but in reality was only a few seconds, and looked at Max shyly. “Uhm…” was all she could think of to say. She took her hand away from his face slowly and hesitantly as if she wanted him to place it back. For kissing a boy for the first time it sure felt natural. Like it was just… Right. She wasn’t completely sure but knew she defiantly liked boys better than girls at this moment in time. Girls were catty and mean. Her best friend had been a boy, and now the first person she actually liked in a crush sort of way was a boy. Boys- 2, Girls- 0.

Sil closed her eyes, sighing softly, and sat back against the wall again. She wasn’t sorry she had kissed him. On the contrary, she was quiet pleased with herself for getting up the nerve. Then a thought occurred. She closed her eyes, and pinched herself. “Ouch…” she muttered then looked up to where Max was sitting, expecting him to have disappeared. Instead he continued to be right there. Sil blushed thinking “Wow. I must look like a freak.” and rubbed the back of her head. “Uh… Don’t ask…” she said with an embarrassed smile and nervous laugh. She sighed and stood up thinking “I just need to leave before I do something really stupid. She smiled down at Max and wished she could count on herself not to do anything really dumb. “I… Uh… Should… Go…” she said hesitating. Would he ask her to stay or get her number or what? She really hoped he’d ask her to stay. But he might let her go… She felt a tug at her heart and smiled sadly staring at the wall in front of her. “We should catch up some time. It’d be nice to see you again.” she said sadly. “I really should go though. Meeting with the parents today.” which wasn’t a complete lie. She was meeting with them… But not for a while. She guessed she would need to take of the makeup and change into something her parents would actually like. This would only take maybe ten minutes. But then again… She did still have homework (more like asylum work) to do. "Sorry... I really do have to run." she said pulling out a sharpie and jotting down 696-1408 on his hand. "That's my number. Feel free to text or call where ever, whenever. See ya later!" she said with a smile and began to walk down the hallway towards her dorm. She secretly hoped he'd walk with her. But best not hope for too much today.

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Max honesty had no idea what had come over him as he actually kissed Sil on the cheek; normally he wouldn’t even be able to talk to her. The moment after the kiss passed and he was certain that she was going to smack his brains out. She did not get mad at him and he had to admit that he felt a whole lot better now. Instead she simply turned and looked at him as she rubbed the back of her head; which he had to admit was something he had not expected. Her telling him that it was fine brought a smile to his face; usually kissing a girl on the cheek would have gotten him scolded or something. She scooted closer to him and then he felt as his face was turned to face hers. He blushed a bit but felt reassured at her words all the same. “Oh…” was all he could say since this whole experience was new to him. What she would do next really caught him off guard; but it was not like he pulled away. The hand on his cheek brought a bigger smile on his face and then he felt her lips against his. He didn’t move and actually kissed her back; it just felt so right to kiss her.

He pouted a bit as she pulled back because he honestly didn’t want that kiss to end. He smiled down at her and was not surprised at all that she was at a loss for words. For a while he had been debating if he likes boys or girls and after that kiss he had to admit that girls were in the lead again. Kissing Toni had seemed natural to him but kissing Sil like that just felt even more natural. He just kept looking at her and was confused when she pinched herself. Next thing he knew she was standing up and he felt a tug at his heart because he knew that he did not want her to go. He let her take his hand and smiled as she writes her number down. He looked at it and committed it to memory instantly; there was no way that he was going to forget it at all. He just looked at the number and then at her as she walked away; yeah there was no way that he was going to let her go. Shaking his head he stood up and ran towards her; she had done something to him and it had made him feel amazing. She had not gotten very far and the next thing he knew he was standing in front of her.

“Sil….”

[/color] he said in a quiet voice as he smiled down at her; having no idea what had caused him to make that impulsive choice to chase after her. “Don’t…. go… please”;[/color] was all he could say as he walked closer to her without having any clue what he was doing. He wrapped his arms around her and moved his face closer to hers; their lips were less than an inch apart. “When you kissed me Sil…. I felt something and it felt great”; he said before he gently pressed his lips against hers. He had no idea how it lasted but he finally pulled back and felt his face turn a light shade of red. Yeah he had kissed her on the lips and he felt good for doing it; because he knew that it was right and it felt right to him. He then rested his chin on the top of her head as he nuzzled against her; refusing to let her go now. He did not care if he had to go into her dorm with her but he did not want to leave her just yet. Sure they had just met randomly and she had hugged him and then kissed him but there was just something about her. He had kissed her and then watched her leave and then and came and kissed her again.



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Sil blushed as Max stood in front of her again. "Uh, Max? I really need to get work done… And I have to take a shower and get this make up off… And… And…” she sputtered until his lips were on hers again. She shut up fast and without thinking wrapped her arms around his neck holding the kiss until he pulled back. Se pouted and leaned into him, standing on tip-toe to reach his face. She was shorter than Max. Only about 5’ 6”. She kissed him again, holding it longer and pressing in a little deeper in to him. She closed the gap between them and only ended this kiss when she needed air. She laughed a little as he rested his chin on the top of her head and nuzzled against her. “Max…” she started still giggling. “Come on… I really have to go…” She tried to have a serious face, but it was near impossible with him. He was just too cute to resist. He was so intoxicating to her. She smiled timidly, still feeling strange. She tugged him gently closer and kissed him again, this time longer. She knew better. She knew this would only lead to heartache and confusion. She knew where else this could lead and she blushed trying to dismiss the thought of them in her dorm room alone. She looked up at him glad he'd chased after her and randomly twirled a piece of his hair between her fingers. Her whole body tingled and the world was a swirl of colors but he stayed in place. Little hallucinations fluttered by and caused her to blink a few times to try to focus. Her mind kept wanting to wonder back to the gutter but Sil wouldn’t let it. She stood there thinking or at least trying to think of other things but she either thought about kissing him or other things. She was afraid to even want to do anything because once a boy had tried to rape her, but Oliver had saved her. In fact that was how they met. This memory drove her away from wanting more than kisses. Though she did want. Very much so in fact. But that whole subject wasn’t for thinking about now. “It can very damn well wait.” she thought to herself.

Sil was a little surprised at herself for swearing in her mind. It was very out of character. All though, when with Oliver she could say what she wanted when she wanted with little to no consequence. She use to be very bad at keeping her language clean but since she started staying at long term hospitals, she learned not to swear due to the little children. She looked down embarrassed and glad she hadn’t sworn out loud. She wasn’t sure how he’d take it. She sighed once again and started to pull away. But then she made a very impulsive choice. “Alright. Since you’re not letting me go, then come with me.” she said almost instantly thinking “WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!” She told her mind to shut up and smiled. She pulled out of his arms and took his hand. She tugged a little as she started in the direction of her room. She knew security wasn’t that watchful and wouldn’t notice or care if he went with her. She’d just have to kick him out when she needed to get ready for her parents’ weekly visit. Her face lost its glow and sadness crept onto her face. She didn’t want them to come. All they did was complain about how she had a “Normal family” and how she should “Be more grateful” to them because they “Never laid a finger on her or treated her badly” and that she “Wasn’t out on the street after everything that’s happened.” Sil hated her family for making her feel like shit. She knew things could be worse, but they didn’t lose one of their dearest friends. Sil had never told them about the abusive bullying at school, afraid that it would only get worse. And when she had told a teacher it had done just that. She didn’t tell her parents, teachers, or counselor about the attempted rape. She was too ashamed of herself. All the old emotions came flooding back and Sil had to fight hard not to show it in her eyes. She was with Max and he had made her feel so happy and so special that she didn’t want to wreck a good moment. She shook her head and laced her fingers with his and smiled up at him. “We don’t have to if you don’t want.” she said quietly. She didn’t want to push anything to quickly or make him uncomfortable. She’d rather him say he didn’t want to and be truthful than let her take him with her and feel awkward. Sil waited for his reply before going anywhere.

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Max saw how Sil blushed as he stood in front of her; he had not meant to do that but he did not want her to leave him. He was about to say that he didn’t give a damn when he felt her wrap his arms around his neck. He kissed her back and he felt his heart beat faster and faster. He had no idea how long the kiss lasted but she finally pulled away for air; and all he could do was look down at her and smile. As he rested his chin and the top of her head and smiled even more as she nuzzled against him; clearly she did not want him to go either. He was about to say something before they were kissing again; but it was not like he was complaining at all. This kiss was deeper and it last much longer; to be honest all he wanted to do was just stand there and kiss her all day. Once again their lips parted and Max felt a little sad again; kissing Sil had just seemed so right to him. He truly did just want to lean in and kiss her over and over again. Her lips felt sweet against his lips and he just wanted to feel that taste again just once.

She looked down again and he felt bad for making her feel so embarrassed; his frown got a little bigger as she started to pull away again. Then after she spoke he smiled brighter; not like he was going to complain about coming with her. “Okay Sil”;

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She smiled at him, glad he wanted to come with her to her room, and tugged him along as she walked towards her dorm. She giggled lightly at the joke she could make at what he'd said, but decided against it. She talked to him the whole way there, telling him about her favorite bands like "Escape the Fate" and "Armor for Sleep", her room at home, and even a little about Oliver. Something she did rarely. She also told him not to mind the slight mess in her room. She was still putting things away. As they walked, Sil blushed lightly and smiled down. She thought about just being held by him and other such things. Her mind drifted into other places but she quickly pushed those thoughts back and didn’t pay much attention to the ever growing want. She smiled up at him and walked a little hurriedly towards her room. She didn’t have roommate at the moment, so it wouldn’t matter too much if she brought a boy back with her.

Sil stopped in front of door number 001 and pushed open the door. There were four beds in the room as well as four desks and chairs. The walls were painted white and there was one barred window next to the bed Sil had chosen. Her bed had a blue and red comforter that her parents had brought from home as well as her bear that Oliver had given her. Her clothing was cluttered around in the cubby spaces next to her desk as well as notebooks, folders, loose-leaf paper, text books, a laptop, pencils, coloring books, and colored pencils. She suddenly felt like a five year old with her coloring books, but decided to play it off like it was nothing. She loved to color. It was her passion next to writing music and singing. In the corner there was a beautiful mahogany acoustic guitar. It once belonged to her great-grandfather and was passed down to her. She loved to learn new songs and make new songs up on it. On the bedside table there was a small silver frame next to an iPod dock with a picture of Sil when she was about 15 with a scrawny teenage boy with brown hair and sea green eyes. They matched in style and had wide smiles on their faces. This boy was Oliver. Sil’s best friend. She never went without the photo. She had one in her wallet and one in the frame that was next to her bed. She also had it as her background on her phone.

“So this is it…” Sil said walking to her bed and sitting down on it. She smiled at Max and motioned him in. “Sorry it isn’t better…” she apologized. She knew how lame her room was, but then again… It was the hospital. They didn’t have the pretty blue walls that Sil had at home with the lavender trim around the boarders and black curtains. The view was nice enough. It let in light when it was sunny, which was nice to Sil. She didn’t especially like it dark all the time. She thought about home and how she needed to get outside more. She was so pale! Almost as pale as paper… Sil laughed to herself at the thought of her being outside. It used to be all the time. You could tell the difference in skin color from the picture to how she looked now. She smiled up at Max and patted the spot next to her. “Come sit with me!” she said happily. She hadn’t been this happy in a long time. She knew she should feel weird about having a boy she really liked in her room. Instead it felt more natural. She remembered the fake relationship she’d been in. How she’d thought she was in love. But this felt different. Maybe this wasn’t love… Maybe this was. She couldn’t tell. Nor did she want to . She just wanted to enjoy the moments with him. “Uhm… So…” she said quietly as she picked up her guitar, strumming it lightly. “Wanna hear a song?”

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