Post by ALIYAH MARIE PETERS on May 21, 2010 1:22:53 GMT
TAKE A BREATH TAKE IT DEEP CALM YOURSELF HE SAYS TO ME IF YOU
PLAY YOU PLAY FOR KEEPS TAKE THE GUN AND COUNT TO THREE • • •
& I'm sweating now moving slow no time to think my turn to go
AND YOU CAN SEE MY HEART BEATING
YOU CAN SEE IT THROUGH MY CHEST
Aliyah Marie Peters was what she was called. Also known as Lea Marie, which sounded sort of like a stripper name, besides that's the main reason they called her that. A bubbly girl yet so pessimistic, it was hard to believe that such a sweet girl could have so many negative thoughts. Suicide frequently ran through her thoughts. She has attempted quite a few times but never successfully completed that objective,obviously. All Ali ever wanted to be was normal, if there ever really was such a thing. A personality disorder on top of a major drug addiction wasn't the best combination. Her appearance doesn't at all reflect how she is, if you didn't actually know her you'd probably think nothing was wrong with her. Lea sat through therapy being really jittery and on edge. She usually suffered from severe with drawl symptoms but this was actually pretty mild compared to what she usually got. A couple of times she put herself in a panic attack and ended up passing out.
Her long brunette hair was in long and loose curls Her hair almost never held them but for some reason today they stayed. Probably because she used around half of a can of hair spray. Her eyes were surrounded with black eyeliner and pink eye shadow. She wore a pair of jean short shorts with a pink silver studded belt, a pink striped jacket over a pink tube top and a pair of black flats. She usually wore outfits like this but instead of flats it was almost always stilettos. She felt more comfortable wearing heels then flat shoes, but that was partially because she use to model. Though she was only five foot three she still did photo shoots. Modeling was one of her favorite things. But after the drugs destroyed her old life she couldn't ever really model until she got help. She doesn't really know why she went through her brother's room and snorted the cocaine so many years ago. If she knew it was going to ruin her life as much as it already has she wouldn't have ever had done it. She would have probably ended up here even if she wasn't on drugs because her Hpd really effected her life too. But she doesn't really like to talk about it, even here she felt uncomfortable when people would bring it up.
She checked around to make sure nobody was around as she walked down into the basement and pulled out a cigarette. Well it wasn't really a cigarette it was weed.She grabbed the baby blue lighter out of her pocket and lit it. She took a puff of smoke in really fast and held it. She leaned against the wall and breathed out the smoke. She always felt like a dragon when she blew her smoke out. Such a silly comparison but it was something her brother made fun of her for. She missed him a lot but she had sort of moved on since he left her family when she turned fourteen.She leaned back and closed her eyes for a minute while taking another hit then holding the cigarette in her hand. Finally some alone time. She thought until she heard something. What ever it was startled her and made her jump. It was pretty dark down in the basement so she couldn't actually tell if someone was there." Errrm, is so...someone there? " She stuttered a little because she was kind of freaked out. Lea was a really jumpy person and if one thing corrupts her she gets very uneasy and jittery.She peered into the darkness while she took in another puff of the toxic smoke.
Aliyah had found herself in situations like this all the time. She'd much rather be with a large group of people but being by herself was fine too.She was pretty unsocial but the idea of being around people made her feel safe. The weed really didn't have any effect on her. She was craving something stronger. But until she started to meet people and found some dealers she had to make use of what she had. Beside she wasn't going to throw them away or anything and have them been a waste of money. That didn't seem necessary. the darkness never answered her question so she just continued to lean against the wall and smoke.
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words seven hundred and fifty one tagged Alec baby
notes ehthis is soso usually this is around how big my posts are.Sorrytemplate PANIC! ITS LAUZ @ CAUTION
