ALL THAT HAS BEEN, WILL BE THERE STILL • emilia

[EMILIA GRACELYN DAVIS]

when we meet, which i'm sure we will
all that has been, will be there still

&& friendship

&& best/close

"How did we end up like this? Do you ever think about it?"

Let’s just admit it, without friends, Emilia will likely end up in a ditch somewhere, ala Silence of the Lambs. She’s not one to have a huge gaggle of people surrounding her at all times – no social butterflies here. Still, a few close and/or one or two best friends would fit well. Her antisocial tendencies might be a turn off for some, but rather than sending a ‘don’t bother me’ vibe, she merely tends to be disengaged and withdrawn, so don’t be shy. You may have to take the initiative, as Em rarely seeks out relationships, but the persistent ought to be successful. Simply hanging around a lot might do the trick as well.

Within relationships, things get a little… weird. Emilia will never be that bestie that goes shopping with you every Sunday and spends countless hours in your dorm room giggling about boys/girls and, like, reading Tiger Beat, or whatever (is that still a magazine? Christ sakes, I haven’t read anything like that in years). Not to say you’ll be spending all those Sundays watching The Virgin Suicides either. Em’s a passive, apathetic person a lot of the time – she’ll do what you want, for the simple reason that she doesn’t care, and if she’s fond of you and you need that normalcy, it’ll be there. Still, she’d probably get along better with the chilled, because she does say and do strange things. It’s just, if you’re sitting at a bus stop and she’s got a lighter and starts trying to melt a piece of the metal railing, it’d be best if her friends didn’t report her to City Hall.

As far as her disorder goes… In older relationships with those she trusts, you’ll see a more relaxed, honest display of personality. You’ll also see more signs of her schizophrenia; she doesn’t talk about it most of the time, but you’ll notice her getting more agitated – wringing her hands, talking to herself. Since her conditions often go in and out of remission, there will be periods where she behaves fairly normal – an unusual, quiet, but regular person. In other periods, it might seem there are times she’s hardly there at all.

&& enemies

&& question mark

I can’t necessarily see Emilia having actual enemies, but who knows? Maybe you’re really against melting state property. I’m up for anything. Though I’d say step 1 would be a walk to City Hall, yeah?

&& romance

&& fuck buddies

"Em, I thought you wanted to fuck?"
"... Yeah."

This is hard to explain quite right. Emilia often behaves asexually (though she’s actually bisexually) – isn’t really attracted to people, doesn’t need sex. Then there are times when she wants to feel “normal,” sees her peers acting “normal,” and equates sex with “normal.” This usually occurs when her schizophrenia is coming out of remission, and she feels she’s losing control of herself.

Insubstantial plot idea: I wanted to maybe explore a specific fuck buddy relationship that deals with something that I think a lot of character’s on KaP share: that they’re self-destructive (sometimes to the point of no return), and that in each other, they find the means to feed those tendencies. Emilia, in particular, would encounter in this person someone who hates/dislikes/demeans her, whose feelings she shares, whose life, in essence, mirrors the state of upheaval in her own. We would find that they have lost control, finding it in a mutually harmful relationship, That they get swept along.

&& love

I have a plot idea that involves Emilia’s schizophrenia worsening as she falls in love. As she begins to connect to someone and really feel, her condition becomes more and more unstable. However, I’d only like to discuss details with interested parties.

"So, how is it then? Love, I mean. Is it how
you always imagined it would be?"
"I don't think I imagined it very much at all."

[NATHAN CHARLES SUMMERS]

Nathan and Emilia

I was thinking that at first they could dislike eachother because she is a musician and he is a popular but yet for some odd reason they are also attracted to each other. One day maybe they could just give in to there feelings for each other and they become fuck buddies

[EMILIA GRACELYN DAVIS]

n a t h a n a n d e m e l i a

That could work. Em's been here since spring 2009, so they could have a history of disliking each other. She doesn't pay much attention to cliques, but if he was cruel to her, she'd hate him just as much. In a period of schizophrenic influence, she tends to disengage, so he may find her unresponsive to bullying, but in a normal period, she wouldn't sit and take it.

I could actually see this working well for the masochistic plot I mentioned, but I'd really like to go in depth and explore a lot of sides with that one, so it could also be as simple as them getting over themselves because they want some. Heh.

[NATHAN CHARLES SUMMERS]

Nathan and Emilia

What do you mean by ' so it could also be as simple as them getting over themselves because they want some. Heh.' all else seems fine. Nathan would be less mean to her when he is by himselff or with his friends that are in a different clique than when he is with the people from the popular clique

[EMILIA GRACELYN DAVIS]

n a t h a n a n d e m e l i a

I just mean we don't have to do that particular plot if you don't want to. It may actually be best not to, 'cause it would involve two people who are never quite kind to one another. There's always that element of cruelty. Punishment.

Maybe over time these two could become- not friend per say, but friendlier. I think Emelia may eventually see him in a better light - that person that's maybe not so horrible as she thought. That she still doesn't quite approve of, be he's there in her life, and she sees a bit more in him than she originally intended. To keep it realistic, I think there should still be that subtle undertone of hostility.

Additions? Modifications?